todays one of those day...

i feel physically sick!

i'm completely in love with where we live.

(not the fact that we are STILL with Bobby's parents, but you know what i mean.)

we have found SO many apartments that we have just fallen in love with and been completely screwed over in the end!

1- the first one i LOVED we ended up not getting an application in in time.

2- same story.

3- we had done the application, been approved.

this place had a "furnished" price and an "unfurnished price."

we wanted in unfurnished, and the day we were moving our stuff here, they told us that they had found someone to rent it furnished.

4- we finally found a place that would be PERFECT! perfect location! Bobby would have a 1 MINUTE WALK to work! amazing right! it would have been stupid to not rent this place! so bobby did the application with the apartment manager. we were approved. we were going to be moving in today. well, the owner rented it to someone else!

can someone please SHOOOOTTT me!?

i'm going so nuts, and just want to cry!

i'm not a crier... in fact i hate crying.

but today i want to!

i feel physically sick with everything that is going on.

we still have all our stuff in a uhaul.

and have the uhaul till tomorrow.

after tomorrow it's $40 a day till we take it back.

i hate moving.

and i hate being so unstable.

i'm sick of packing up my life so often to go on some random adventure.

i'm ready to be done.

i WAS nervous about being stable.

now i'm ready!

it's old, and annoying.

goal- find a place to live.

live there for 6 months.

i'm starting out small.

if i say a year, i don't have much faith that will happen.

wish us luck,

i'm gonna go eat oreos and cry now.