Bobby-Lindsey-Boston-Baby Beck

a couple of weeks ago i wrote a post. it was SO depressing! all about how sad i was to leave colorado and how i wasn't totally sold on the bay area and how i had no friends. and more blah blah blahs! i posted it. well, i thought i did!? luckily, for anyone that still reads this silly old blog of mine, i didn't. not sure what happened but it just got saved as a draft and no one in the whole universe had to read about my oh so miserable life! ;)

now here i am. we've been in san jose for an entire month! and i'm only going slightly crazy. i still miss denver every now and then but it doesn't weigh so heavy on my mind anymore! we are here. and here to stay!

after being so down and out about everything in my life, i decided that i was being so ridiculous! i decided to be happy! that's it. that's all it took. every once in awhile i have to remind myself to be happy, but i AM! i'm so happy! happy to be here. happy to have an awesome, stinking cute husband that does so much for us. and 2 stinking cute kids! even if one of them is teething and is a complete diva! ;)

i just keep looking at what is around me now. staying in the present! every once in awhile looking towards the future. (only to the moments when we'll have friends to do things with!) but i'm finally content. and HAPPY! it's such a good feeling!!