Has it really been 2 years already? This has got to be my MOST dreaded day of they year! It comes and goes like normal to every other person and most people don't even care about March 4th. But to me, I hate it! I sit and think about what I was doing at this time 2 years ago. Right now, I was with the most wonderful woman in the world. The woman that had and will have the most impact on my life. We were just there for a convention. A silly convention. One that will stay in my mind forever. I had been sooo excited about going to Vegas with my mom that I had told all my roommates about it. Everyone was pretty jealous! I think about how lucky I was that I got to spend the last couple of days with her. But then I think about how unfortunate I was to have to see the things that I was forced to see. I know that my mom didn't choose to leave me the way that she did. But that doesn't make it any easier. Everyone that knew my mom absolutely loved her. She was ALWAYS the life of the party! And we always had fun together. I think about the things that she's missed these last 2 years and it kills me! I mean, I know she was "here" for them, but not in my sight. She was a guide at the temple and she got to see the bridal room, I remember her telling me how gorgeous it was and that she couldn't wait for us to be able to go in there. But she didn't get to go with me. She didn't get to be here for the birth of her first grandchild, Boston. But I do know that she picked him out especially for us. I loved my mom, correction, I LOVE my mom.
Bobby and I went out to her grave today. First time in exactly a year. I have a hard time going out there. So I don't ever go. But today was different, I felt such peace. Last year I just bawled and bawled and didn't want to be there. This year, it was peaceful. I felt much better. I won't ever "get over" watching my mom die. But I will/have "move on." I know that I will get to be with her again! I love you, mom!
There was definately A LOT of snow!
But luckily for me I have a wonderful husband that trudged through it anyways! =]
Beautiful flowers!
She loved flowers! =]
On the bright side... Look at what my husband surprised me with!! Diamond earrings! AND I LOVE THEM!! AND HIM! They are each a quarter of a carat. Gosh he's amazing! He said it was a "Early Birthday/Congratulations for losing so much weight!" present! My birthdays not till June! =] But hey! I'm fin with these gorgeous diamonds anyways! ;]
1 comments:
Lindsey you are such a strong girl, and amazing me. Your mom is still alive to all of us through you because of the neat girl that you are. Your little boston just melts my heart and i am going to need bobby to give trav some tips for mothers day;) take care
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